NEW YEAR, NEW NAMSTA?

Allow me to attach a trigger warning to this post peeps….There are references to intergenerational trauma, mental health and abuse cycles. This post was originally written in 2022.

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(PS. This is my first time EVER recording a blog post...YAAAY ME :-)

Part 1 — Introduction: Finding the Voice

I open up about the mental health spiral that nearly took me out, and the taboo truths Caribbean families rarely speak aloud. This chapter sets the tone for everything that follows, as I unpack the neuroscience behind suicidal ideation and explain why sharing my story matters. It’s me choosing to be grounded, honest, and done with silence.

Tap to listen to Part 1 - The silence ends here

Part 2 — HELLRAISER: The Millennial East End Edition

Here, I take you straight into the chaos of surviving five years with a “Repeat Offender” whose explosive rages and gaslighting left my nervous system in tatters. I describe what it felt like to live in constant fight‑or‑flight, to be the emotional clean‑up crew, and to finally ground myself enough to walk away from the madness. Think retro horror movie meets East London reality.

Tap to listen to Part 2 - Chaos meets clarity

Part 3 — The Collective: We Don’t Talk About…

In this part, I introduce “The Collective”, elders shaped by Windrush trauma, emotional neglect, and a culture of secrecy. I reflect on how shame grows in silence, how survival‑mode becomes normal, and how unhealed pain gets passed down. This is me grounding myself in truth, naming what was never meant to be buried.

Tap to listen to Part 3 - Naming what was buried

Part 4 — The Re‑Education of Namsta

This is where my healing really begins. I share how therapy, chosen family, and emotional clarity helped me rewire my nervous system and reclaim my voice. I talk about boundaries, people‑pleasing, and the hard work of unlearning behaviours I once thought kept me safe. It’s grounded, vulnerable, and full of the lessons that changed my life.

Tap to listen to Part 4 - Boundaries, baby

Part 5 — In Conclusion: Passing Generational Trauma

I connect the dots between colonialism’s brutal legacy and the survival‑mode parenting styles still echoing through West Indian homes. I reflect on how discipline became abuse, silence became culture, and why my generation is finally ready to talk. I close grounded in gratitude, committed to #TeamCycleBreaker, and uplifted by the healing power of music.

Tap to listen to Part 5 - #TeamCycleBreaker in full effect